
Monday, July 27, 2009
Object Oriented Romance

Thursday, April 23, 2009
Me, Myself and I

I'm just trying to find a way to explain
How i am seriously turning insane
Crazy is what i used to call Me
But Myself has now acquired the name
Speaking of Me and Myself
It's been a long time since we talked
I think we should get together
The three of us shall take a long walk
As we're wandering through the woods
Our thoughts struggling in my head
I decided to say some random words
To break the ice and move ahead
The word "love" came up
I found myself rising above
For she believes in its powers
And it's all what she's thinking of
She said:
"Feel it from the inside
And spread it all around you
Smile at every face you see
And leave the past behind you"
And then she started chanting
"Om Shanti Peace peace
Peace, love and understanding
Please please please"
But then there was me
Sarcastically starting to clap
While laughing hilariously she said
"Could you please cut the crap?"
She said:
"Wake up honey it's reality
Where love does not exist
Nobody cares and nobody will
as long as you insist!"
"We're all alone in this world
Striving for peace of mind
The peace you're talking about
It is beyond space and time"
And then there was silence
It was my turn to speak
I regret the chosen topic
For it makes me feel weak
I said:
"Love is what i thought
But not what i felt
Loneliness is what i fought
But in my heart is where it dwelt"
"I'm stuck in the middle
of love and loneliness
Hope and despair
Strength and weakness"
"My words, My thoughts
My intelligence, My personality
My insecurities, my failings
My emotions, My Insanity"
Again I started hearing it
Disturbance in my brain
At night it wont let me sleep
At night when voices scream
In my head they keep roaring
They're angry with my mind
yet all I'm struggling for is
Kissing away the image of your smile
What's happening to Me?I am hurting myself!
This must be put to an end
I'm talking to Myself, but she 's not inside
I can't seem to find Me as well
Now I'm lost in the woods
I can't find my way home
Why did i take life so seriously
Why didn't i just let go?
... It's okay if you don't understand a word in this poem! LOL
Monday, April 6, 2009
She Thought...

The thoughts in her head
The feelings in her heart
The words on her lips
The tears in her eyes
The pain through her veins
The struggle within her soul
The guilt on her chest
The weakness of her all
She thought she had this life
She thought she understood
She thought she got it all
She got it all wrong
She thought it was the time
When things were finally fair
She thought there could be more
She lost all what was there
She thought that you were true
She thought this time it's real
She thought she had a clue
Now there's too much to heal..
As she was breaking down
She knew what she had to do
It was her last resort
To end what she's going through
At dawn when the air was thin
And the sky was very low
Gathering herself she swallowed her fears
Then she was ready to go
On her way she was chased
By images from her past
But nothing could break her will
Nothing could hold her back
After a long painful journey
She made it to the top of the hill
The wind was blowing angrily
Yet she strongly stood still
It was the time and the place
Tears started running down her face
Of all the sins of disgrace
This was her favorite mistake
She closed her eyes and smiled
What's left was only a while
She could finally feel peace of mind
She took her last breath and died..
p.s: That's a very depressing poem, I was not feeling well when i wrote it ... So i definitely do not mean it ..I hope it doesn't encourage any suicidal thoughts in any one 's head!!! lol
Saturday, March 14, 2009
The Whole "Hijab" Thing
Hijab: The Veil/ higab
Hijabbed: Wearing a Hijab
Hijabi: a girl wearing a Hijab
:)
Hello!
Today I'll discuss many of my thoughts on Hijab but whether it's an Islamic obligation on women is NOT one of them. Actually i will not be talking about Hijab as a concept but how people view it. I just think that the issue of Hijab is overrated, Yeah..I think people (either supporting or fighting it) are unnecessarily making a big deal out of it. Usually people in our beautiful Arab societies make big deals out of issues that are worth a chewing gum just to appear like they have some points but we seriously need to grow up and stop dividing the community into groups more than it already is because now there's a "Mo7agaba" and a "Mesh Mo7agaba"... I'll get to this division later but let me start the discussion properly.
In the last couple of years, some religious Muslim people started encouraging girls to wear the hijab and thus devoted Muslim girls started wearing it (which is not bad). However, almost all religious discussions were then directed towards the Islamic dress of women and ignored anything else (like the basic principles of the Islamic faith, the behavior of a Muslim, the purpose of our life....and more important issues).
This lead to a huge gap between the people's attention to their appearances and their realization of their spirits, they became separated. That's a huge problem because being disconnected from your true self means that you're unbalanced which means that you're not able to think clearly! With time, people unintentionally began relating the personality of a girl to what she's wearing. They could even judge the strength of her faith and the more covered she is, the more respected she became even if she doesn't even pray, she is to be considered a good Muslim.
Consequently, Hijab became more of a cultural thing ...which is not the point. But group A which i was talking about in my post "Muslims in Egypt" appeared.
As more girls started wearing the hijab, another group of Muslim people (group B) noticed that and were upset, either because they're against the idea of Hijab in general or because of how group A prioritized it over other things. As a result, they considered themselves against the Hijab Movement and started fighting it!
They developed some opinions like: Hijab is a backward step in the society!, Men force women to wear it, it's against women freedom....!
Accordingly girls are being judged again according to their clothes. If she's hijabbed then most probably she was brainwashed by men to do so. She must be uneducated or narrow minded and she can't think on her own. She definitely needs help!
Hundreds if not thousands of groups and events on facebook calling girls to take off their Hijab because they're "free". Many websites and campaigns against wearing the hijab. Slogans, articles and pictures making fun of the Hijabis and offending the hijab calling it things like ignorance and retardation...But they're still calling for the "freedom" of girls. Do i smell contradiction?
Despite the fact that i do wear the hijab, i'm not taking sides here. As a matter of fact i'm against both sides! lol. No really, I totally respect those who support the hijab and those who fight it. But don't you think that there are MUCH MORE important things to talk about? In our society: drugs, sexual harassments, real ignorance, poverty...but we're still discussing whether a girl should cover her hair or not. Why don't we all act upon our beliefs. If you believe in Hijab, just put it on and leave the others alone. If you believe Hijab is pointless, forget about it. It's okay to share your opinions but you guys are spending too much effort and time on something that won't really make a difference!
Actually what's truly and personally pissing me off is not only the way people think of hijab but the pressure both sides of the debate are putting on the girl wearing it. It's like everybody is waiting for the Hijabbed girl to sin...
Hijab-Supporters are criticizing her actions that are not "suitable for a girl who wears hijab"!
Hijab-Fighters are criticizing her actions that "prove that the hijab she's wearing is pointless"!
In the end, you're always going to hear this sentence from both sides:
"Shoof ya akhy mo7agaba we bet3ml eih!"
It's like the day i decided to cover up i announced to the world that i'm perfect...
Everybody is expecting me to dress in the perfect modest way! (I'm not saying i'm not supposed to dress modestly, that's what the concept of Hijab is all about to most people but it still doesn't give you the right to assume i was intentionally wearing my slightly tight jeans to drag attention). Not only that, but i'm expected to ACT in a certain way as well. Come on! I mean it's a piece of cloth not a halo or a sensor that's supposed to electrify me whenever i'm about to commit a sin!
I'm wearing the hijab for my own personal reasons. Girls have brains, remember? I am able to judge for my own self and make my own decisions. I'm not waiting for you to brainwash me about how i've been brainwashed my whole life! You don't even know what i'm thinking. You don't know what Hijab represents for me and how my life is affected by it.
I'm not giving excuses for myself or for any Hijabi who makes mistakes, I know some silly mistakes are sometimes done which contradict the concept of Hijab but so what? You sometimes pray your daily 5 prayers perfectly and sometimes you're mind is thinking about something else, some other day you miss the duhr Prayer but usually you're doing your best to wake up for Fajr. You see...we are all human beings we are all doing our best. And seriously that's the most important thing of all, that we make sure that WE are doing our best and not Others!
Don't you see that Satan himself is satisfied with this division? Can't you see how weaker and weaker we become each day? How we're being humiliated in front of the whole world!? There's incredible technology in the real world but in our world we're still concerned with the hijabbed girl that smokes shisha.
Let's bring back the Glory of our beautiful faith.
Let's learn to love each other and focus on our similarities and forget about our differences. And direct all our energy to something useful.
I hope i was able to deliver my message correctly...
Monday, March 9, 2009
A Great Stanza From an Arabic Poem
ولـــدتك أمك يا ابن آدم بـــاكياً
والناس حولك يضحكون سرورا
فاحفظ لنفسك أن تكون إذا بكوا
فى يوم موتك ضاحكاً مسرورا
الأعشى بن قيس
Thursday, January 15, 2009
We will not go down (Song for Gaza)
A great song for Michael Heart. Please watch the video: (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dlfhoU66s4Y&eurl=http://www.michaelheart.com/Song_for_Gaza.html#)
Or download it FOR FREE from Michael Heart's website (www.michaelheart.com)
Here are the lyrics:
A blinding flash of white light
Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight
People running for cover
Not knowing whether they’re dead or alive
They came with their tanks and their planes
With ravaging fiery flames
And nothing remains
Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze
We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight
Women and children alike
Murdered and massacred night after night
While the so-called leaders of countries afar
Debated on who’s wrong or right
But their powerless words were in vain
And the bombs fell down like acid rain
But through the tears and the blood and the pain
You can still hear that voice through the smoky haze
We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight
We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Israel For Dummies
Anyway, after i went home i had so many thoughts in my head concerning the whole Israel-Palestine conflict thing. So i talked to my dad (who's in love with history) and asked him about the beginning of all this suffering, how it all started. And so he started narrating the story of Palestine...of course i will never be able to tell it the way he did (I'll just write it in points) and i might unintentionally drop some important events. So with the help of the internet i decided I should write it anyway to share with you guys and to keep my self reminded.
(1)
Palestine was ruled by the Ottoman Empire from the 1500's up until World War I.
In 1922, Britain got a League of Nations “mandate” to rule Palestine as a colony.
Between 1933 and 1945, the British imperialists, along with the U.S.,
severely restricted Jewish immigration into their own countries in order to push Jews toward Palestine-at a time when Jews in Europe faced the Holocaust.
(2)
In 1936, the Arabs began a major revolt against British policies and ever-increasing Jewish immigration. The revolt ended in 1939, the same year the British released a document known as the White Paper of 1939, which limited Jewish immigration to Palestine to 75,000 over five years - and none thereafter. It also prohibited future land sales to Jews, and promised Palestine independence within 10 years, presumably as an Arab-dominated state.
1937, Peel Commission finds the British promises to both Arabs and Jews irreconcilable, declare it's Mandate unworkable, and recommend partition of Palestine into Arab, Jewish and British sectors. The Peel Commission is a British Royal Commission of Inquiry set out to propose changes to the British Mandate of Palestine following the outbreak of the 1936-1939 Arab revolt in Palestine. It was headed by the Earl Peel.
Haganah, Irgun, and the Stern Gang emerge as Jewish terrorist groups. Riots erupt and terror attacks increase from both sides.
(3)
Irgun, led by Menachen Begin, announce in 1944 a war against the Mandate and intention to assassinate all British officials who limit Jewish immigration. Most Israeli leaders then, as now were members or supporters of these Jewish terrorist organizations.
The British, after securing their oil interests in Iraq, and the Suez Canal in Egypt, drop the Palestine issue like a hot potato. In 1947, Britain told the United Nations it was ending the Palestine mandate and handed the problem to the United Nations.
A U.N. commission recommended that Palestine be partitioned into two states, one Arab and one Jewish, with Jerusalem under international control. The United States supported that idea. At that time, the Palestinians outnumbered Zionist settlers two to one and owned 92 percent of the land. But the partition gave Israel 54 percent of the land. The recommendation was endorsed by the U.N. General Assembly on Nov. 29, 1947 as U.N. Resolution 181.
The Arab states and the Arabs of Palestine rejected the U.N. partition, feeling that all the land was theirs. The Jews accepted the plan and on May 14, 1948, led by David Ben-Gurion, declared statehood for Israel. U.S. President Truman recognized Israel immediately, followed shortly after by the Soviet Union.
(4)
In May 1948-after the Palestinians and the Arab countries refused to accept the UN partition-Israel launched a war against Palestinians. Israeli forces massacred 250 villagers in Deir Yassin, including 100 women and children. Israel used this atrocity to spread terror among the Palestinian people, and many fled their homes in panic. By the war's end in January 1949, nearly 800,000 Palestinians-two-thirds of the population-had been driven into exile; Israel had seized 77 percent of the land.To the Arab world, the war was a humiliating defeat, another instance of pan-Arab unity proving unequal to the power of outsiders. It remains a source of bitterness to this day, with the story of how the war drove Palestinians off their lands referred to as al-Nakba, "the disaster."
By the time the 1948 war ended - through a 1949 agreement called the Rhodes Armistice - some 700,000 Palestinians had left their homes, most moving into the area now known as the West Bank and creating the refugee crisis that still exists. At the same time, a similar number of Jewish refugees fled their homes in neighboring areas and other Arab countries because of the turmoil.
Israel increases the size of its territory by 40% possessing approximately 8,000 square miles of Palestine - reducing the Arab lands set up in the 1947 U.N. partition by some 50 percent. Jerusalem was divided, with Arabs on the east side of the armistice line - the Green Line - and the Jews on the west.
Curiously, Israel still refuses to accept any identified boundaries, and, Israel was established as a state for "Jewish People", not as a state for its citizens.
(5)
The 1960s saw a revolutionary upsurge among Palestinians. Palestinian guerrilla organizations launched armed struggle against Israel in 1965, with the aim of creating a democratic, secular (non-religious) state throughout Palestine. In March 1968 Palestinian fighters held off a major Israeli attack at Karameh, Jordan. In 1967 the Israelis launched the “Six Day War” and seized the remaining 23 percent of historic Palestine-the West Bank, Gaza, and East Jerusalem-along with Egypt's Sinai Peninsula and Syria's Golan Heights.
UN Resolution 242 called on Israel to withdraw from all areas seized in the 1967 war. But the Israelis began to build heavily armed settlements in the occupied areas. Since 1967, Palestinians in the West Bank and Gaza have been under harsh military occupation, denied basic rights and unable to develop any viable
(6)
On Oct. 6, 1973, Egypt and Syria attacked Israel. The attack caught Israel off guard. It was Yom Kippur, the holiest day on the Jewish calendar, and most of Israel was shut down for the holiday.
Six days into the fighting, the U.S. began a massive, $2.2 billion airlift of fighter planes, tanks, helicopters and munitions to Israel. It was worth it, Nixon said, "to maintain a balance of forces and achieve stability in the Middle East."
Eventually, Israel was able to turn back the Syrian and Egyptian armies and even pursue them into their own territories. In the end, Egypt lost about 7,700 soldiers; the Syrians, 3,500.
The battle between the Israelis and the Arabs raised the tensions between the superpowers considerably, and on Oct. 22 the U.S. and Russia moved to halt the hostilities by proposing U.N. Resolution 338, which called for an immediate end to the fighting and the resumption of efforts toward peace under the guidelines set out in Resolution 242. The resolution passed unanimously.
The war left Israel as the Mideast's dominant military power once again, but it also established the Arab states' ability to inflict heavy damage on Israel.
It also inaugurated the tradition of huge U.S. military aid to Israel, which continues to this day - in recent years, about two-thirds of the roughly $3 billion a year in U.S. aid to Israel has gone to the Israeli military.
(7)
At Camp David 1978, the first peace treaty between Israel and an Arab state is hammered out.
In return for peace with Egypt, Israel agrees to hand back the Sinai and remove all Jewish settlements there. A highway is to be built between Jordan and Egypt that Israel guarantees "Free and Peaceful Passage". Israeli airbases built in Sinai to be handed over to Egyptian civil authorities.
Notice That: The reluctance of Arab states to take Palestine refugees, and the wish of many Palestinians to keep their identity and status as a dispossessed people, led to the continuation of the refugee camps set up!
(8)
The first Palestinian intifada (uprising/ shaking off) that erupted in the late 1980s deeply shook Israel and the U.S. imperialists.
The tactics were far less violent than those seen in confrontations these days; Palestinians threw stones and Molotov cocktails, and Israelis fired rubber bullets in response. Strikes and boycotts were also used. Palestinians believe the power of the intifada, along with the worldwide attention it generated, pressured Israel to begin negotiating seriously with the Palestine Liberation Organization (PLO) .
In addition to outright bloody suppression, the U.S. and Israel initiated a so-called “Peace Process.” A key part of U.S. strategy has been the “two-state solution”: official Palestinian “recognition” of Israel and end to all resistance, in return for a small state in the West Bank and Gaza. By the late 1980s Yasser Arafat and the PLO had basically agreed to this.
The U.S. and Israel have never intended to allow a truly independent Palestinian state. Under the Oslo “peace process” begun in 1993, Israel transferred about 40 percent of the West Bank to the Palestinian Authority (PA). But this PA territory is only about 10 percent of historic Palestine and consists of small disconnected pieces of land surrounded by areas under Israeli control. The main roads, key water resources, and access to neighboring countries and the sea are all controlled by Israel. And the Oslo agreement made no provisions for the four million Palestinian refugees living outside of Israel, West Bank, and Gaza. During the years of the “peace process” (1993 through 2000), the number of Israeli settlers in the West Bank doubled.
The U.S. and Israel dropped this “peace process” and pursued even more unrestrained tactics after the year 2000. Meanwhile Israeli settlements have multiplied, now numbering hundreds, with Israeli troops protecting their land grab and aggression.
(9)
The second intifada began in September 2000 after years of failed peace negotiations and a provocative visit by Ariel Sharon-the man responsible for the 1982 massacre of hundreds at the Sabra and Shatilla refugee camp in Beirut, Lebanon- to the site of the Al-Aqsa Mosque, an area known as the Temple Mount to Jews and as Haram al-Sharif to Arabs.
Continuing to this day, the second intifada is far more violent and bloody than the first, with Palestinians employing suicide bombers and guns.
Since the late 1980s Israel has at times promoted the growth of the Islamic fundamentalist group Hamas as a countervailing force against secular forces and to stoke clashes among Palestinian groups. Hamas, with its reactionary ideology, is in some ways a perfect foil for the U.S. and Israel, who try to portray themselves as modern democracies confronting obscurantist theocracies. (Enlightened people in the West who want to oppose fundamentalist theocracies can start at home: the U.S. has a president who is deeply connected to Christian fascist theocrats.) The U.S. and Israel have used the victory of Hamas in the recent Palestinian elections to justify intensifying brutality against the Palestinian people by further embedding these attacks in the overall rationale of the “war on terror.”
(10)
Israeli brutality against the Palestinian people became even more deadly after Ariel Sharon was installed as Israel's prime minister in 2001.
In 2002 Israel began erecting a fortified barrier-concrete walls, electrified fences, electric sensors, razor wire, trenches, and watchtowers-across more than 400 miles of Palestinian land in the West Bank. This apartheid wall further isolates many Palestinian towns, separates farmers from their fields, and steals more land from the Palestinians.
By early 2003, no agreements have been reached. Israel continues its policy of colonization of occupied territory (in violation of the 4th Geneva Convention) and the confiscation of precious water resources in the West Bank for new Israeli settlements.
In September 2005 Sharon carried out a “disengagement” from the Gaza Strip, dismantling Israeli settlements and military installments-as part of a plan to make Gaza into a big prison for the 1.4 million Palestinians there, while moving to annex more land in the West Bank. Sharon's successor, Ehud Olmert, has continued on this path, announcing a plan for “unilateral withdraw” from the West Bank-which means consolidating Israeli control over the most valuable and strategic territory, while intensifying the siege around the scattered Palestinian enclaves.
Further adding to the misery of the Palestinian people, the U.S. and European powers invoked Hamas' victory in the elections for the Palestinian legislature in early 2006 to cut off or restrict aid to the Palestinian Authority. This economic strangulation is having a traumatic effect on the Palestinian people. More than half of Palestinians in the West Bank and Gaza now live below the international poverty line of $2 a day. The UN's World Health Organization has warned of a “looming” health crisis, with hospitals and clinics running out of medicine, fuel, and other vital necessities.
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Sources:
(I apologize for i haven't got enough time to paraphrase some paragraphs)
http://seattletimes.nwsource.com/news/nation-world/mideast/wars/
http://revcom.us/a/052/palestinefactsheet-en.html
http://unimaps.com/historic-israel-palestine2/index.html
PLEASE CHECK THESE STATISTICS: http://www.ifamericansknew.org/
If you're interested you can also check:
http://revcom.us/a/1226/palesinterview.htm
http://www.palestinehistory.com/history/brief/brief.htm
http://www.palestinefacts.org/pf_history.php
http://www.palestineremembered.com/