Me, Myself and I

I'm just trying to find a way to explain
How i am seriously turning insane
Crazy is what i used to call Me
But Myself has now acquired the name

Speaking of Me and Myself
It's been a long time since we talked
I think we should get together
The three of us shall take a long walk

As we're wandering through the woods
Our thoughts struggling in my head
I decided to say some random words
To break the ice and move ahead

The word "love" came up
I found myself rising above
For she believes in its powers
And it's all what she's thinking of

She said:
"Feel it from the inside
And spread it all around you
Smile at every face you see
And leave the past behind you"

And then she started chanting
"Om Shanti Peace peace
Peace, love and understanding
Please please please"

But then there was me
Sarcastically starting to clap
While laughing hilariously she said
"Could you please cut the crap?"

She said:
"Wake up honey it's reality
Where love does not exist
Nobody cares and nobody will
as long as you insist!"

"We're all alone in this world
Striving for peace of mind
The peace you're talking about
It is beyond space and time"

And then there was silence
It was my turn to speak
I regret the chosen topic
For it makes me feel weak

I said:
"Love is what i thought
But not what i felt
Loneliness is what i fought
But in my heart is where it dwelt"

"I'm stuck in the middle
of love and loneliness
Hope and despair
Strength and weakness"

"My words, My thoughts
My intelligence, My personality
My insecurities, my failings
My emotions, My Insanity"

Again I started hearing it
Disturbance in my brain
At night it wont let me sleep
At night when voices scream

In my head they keep roaring
They're angry with my mind
yet all I'm struggling for is
Kissing away the image of your smile

What's happening to Me?I am hurting myself!
This must be put to an end
I'm talking to Myself, but she 's not inside
I can't seem to find Me as well

Now I'm lost in the woods
I can't find my way home
Why did i take life so seriously
Why didn't i just let go?

... It's okay if you don't understand a word in this poem! LOL

She Thought...

The thoughts in her head
The feelings in her heart
The words on her lips
The tears in her eyes

The pain through her veins
The struggle within her soul
The guilt on her chest
The weakness of her all

She thought she had this life
She thought she understood
She thought she got it all
She got it all wrong

She thought it was the time
When things were finally fair
She thought there could be more
She lost all what was there

She thought that you were true
She thought this time it's real
She thought she had a clue
Now there's too much to heal..

As she was breaking down
She knew what she had to do
It was her last resort
To end what she's going through

At dawn when the air was thin
And the sky was very low
Gathering herself she swallowed her fears
Then she was ready to go

On her way she was chased
By images from her past
But nothing could break her will
Nothing could hold her back

After a long painful journey
She made it to the top of the hill
The wind was blowing angrily
Yet she strongly stood still

It was the time and the place
Tears started running down her face
Of all the sins of disgrace
This was her favorite mistake

She closed her eyes and smiled
What's left was only a while
She could finally feel peace of mind
She took her last breath and died..



p.s: That's a very depressing poem, I was not feeling well when i wrote it ... So i definitely do not mean it ..I hope it doesn't encourage any suicidal thoughts in any one 's head!!! lol